Monday, February 22, 2010

Don’t bend over backwards for someone who won’t even press a send key for you


I know how much I love to say that I feel sorry for whoever you’re with,

But we all know the truth is I’m jealous

You’re only in it for a chase?

I just made it way too easy,

Too bad I liked you,

Too bad the whole world knew

… Too bad this kind of thing was kept secret…

Too bad…

I kept this up for way too long

And this was bound to happen after all

Who was I to expect anything…?

It really got down to a point…

A point where I was happy,

Because I didn’t care

I don’t think this was my way of giving up,

Just my way of having something

It grew to a point when I didn’t expect anything from you,

When we made plans to hang out with a date and time,

I didn’t expect you to show, or even get a call…

When you promised and I didn’t believe you…

That was all for show,

I'd believe anything you say….

I still rolled and my eyes and shock my head,

You then convinced me with a pink promise…

And you lie.

GIVING UP ON YOU IS THE EASIEST THING I’ve ever done, I’ve done it a million times… when I cry and say I hate you on your voicemail, its kind of our cute little game

Friday, February 5, 2010

sHE beLIEveD him

so I got fired the other day...
Now Im jobless
ruined my plans for the weekend
Not that they wouldnt have been ruined... Its snowing bad and it started early... so that means I wouldnt have been able to leave anyways...
I wasnt ment to enjoy myself this weekend i guess
My 8 ball is always right.... strange... but very true
Im really confused on things right now...

I think im getting better about my emotions... and I just pop a sleeping pill if it's too much to handle... But I over think things I think...

I am constantly asking... wait what does that mean... im referring to simple text messages... ughh why is it looked down upon to be straight out about things... Just put it out there... Black or White....Yes or No... its not that hard....and then when it does get technically I always feel like shit....


for example labels... I dont like them...

There is a word for this situation! Id much rather the label stick then to mention that word....



UGHHHH am I confusing anyone yet????


HELP


what can I do