Don’t bend over backwards for someone who won’t even press a send key for you

I know how much I love to say that I feel sorry for whoever you’re with,

But we all know the truth is I’m jealous

You’re only in it for a chase?

I just made it way too easy,

Too bad I liked you,

Too bad the whole world knew

… Too bad this kind of thing was kept secret…

Too bad…

I kept this up for way too long

And this was bound to happen after all

Who was I to expect anything…?

It really got down to a point…

A point where I was happy,

Because I didn’t care

I don’t think this was my way of giving up,

Just my way of having something

It grew to a point when I didn’t expect anything from you,

When we made plans to hang out with a date and time,

I didn’t expect you to show, or even get a call…

When you promised and I didn’t believe you…

That was all for show,

I'd believe anything you say….

I still rolled and my eyes and shock my head,

You then convinced me with a pink promise…

And you lie.

GIVING UP ON YOU IS THE EASIEST THING I’ve ever done, I’ve done it a million times… when I cry and say I hate you on your voicemail, its kind of our cute little game

sHE beLIEveD him

so I got fired the other day...
Now Im jobless
ruined my plans for the weekend
Not that they wouldnt have been ruined... Its snowing bad and it started early... so that means I wouldnt have been able to leave anyways...
I wasnt ment to enjoy myself this weekend i guess
My 8 ball is always right.... strange... but very true
Im really confused on things right now...

I think im getting better about my emotions... and I just pop a sleeping pill if it's too much to handle... But I over think things I think...

I am constantly asking... wait what does that mean... im referring to simple text messages... ughh why is it looked down upon to be straight out about things... Just put it out there... Black or White....Yes or No... its not that hard....and then when it does get technically I always feel like shit....


for example labels... I dont like them...

There is a word for this situation! Id much rather the label stick then to mention that word....



UGHHHH am I confusing anyone yet????


HELP


what can I do

X 10

Im not doctor but you by the far the best thing for me...As much as you make me mentally and physically ache... You make the happiess ive ever been. I feel like Im going to burst :-)
Thank you....
You make me wanna be better... do all the things I do better.... improve the things I dont like about myself for you. Not that i dont love my self....just make me better....

I mean it when I say i love this...and I would do anything to stay this way....


thats all the thoughts I have time for tonight.....

Nothing easy is ever worth having

blah so all my hopes and dreams have been crushed...

I took out a shitload of student loans.... just cuz i could pretty much... well I was under the impression i was gonna get back $4000 but no Im only gett like 1300, well anywasy I wanted to buy a BUG.... my dream car is a Volkswagen beetle... ive wanted one my whole life.... and thought finally I might get one


but no found out today only getting back 1300 and I suck at saving money.... But I will try. Like i get paid every week at a part time min wage job..... and I travel back to my friends all the time which is a 3 hour drive and spend all my money....

to put it this way... if I didnt spend a penny for 2 months... and sold both my cars.... maybe Id have a chance if the car Im looking at doesnt sell.....



so bummed



and todaYYYY I found out March is a black out month.... so there goes my plans for spring breakkkkkkk



and I broke 2 nails...


Now Im home... and bored with nothing to doooooooooooooooooooooooo

I thought it would be nice to start a blogg.... soo this is it... any ideas on what it should be about?